I am truly amazed at how much of a work in progress I am and have been in the past year. I’m very much still under construction and yes it is God doing the work.
One big change, I no longer consider myself to be spiritual. I am straight up a Christian, Baptist if we want to get specific. However, my political views aren’t exactly like most Baptists, but I think that’s ok. I am doing my best at being consistent w/ going to church every Sunday, which is actually pretty easy because I love it and it makes the week way better when you start it w/ the Lord. We have a small/home group every other Sunday evening. It’s so nice to be around like minded people to just fellowship and study together.
So what changed? A couple of things. I started digging deeper into some of the things that as a yogi I just accepted as being good and full of love and light. I was ignorant in a lot of this. I no longer see Buddha as simple, it’s not it’s very deep and different when you start learning the real stuff and not just the nice quotes you read on the internet. I don’t have anything against anyone of the Buddhist faith, I just found out it doesn’t mesh with mine so I’ve stopped using his quotes and no longer have his image anywhere in my home/life. I no longer consider the “Universe” and God as being interchangeable (they are very different). I now stir clear of any of the old “Goddess” circles/groups that I used to see as harmless. It just doesn’t fit with what I believe and what the bible says.
I no longer practice Reiki. Not because I don’t believe in it but because I believe that it is like palm reading or fortune telling. You are possibly communing w/ something that is not of this world or of Heaven. Possibly seeing/being told the future, according to the bible we are not supposed to do any of those things. I look back now and think how ignorant I was to allow that to be placed in me and have asked God to remove it, and I believe he has.
So what was the final kick in the butt that really opened my eyes, turned my world upside down and brought me back to the my Christian faith? Well, people to be honest, but not people of the faith. People with little or no faith sent me running back. I had started having some issues at one of the studio. We’ll just say there were some personal attacks and a lot of gossip and other stuff behind my back that was very hurtful. So I started looking (and talking to my father-in-law) about teaching a class at his church. Then I felt this calling to not just teach a plain old yoga class but to make it a ministry. To teach about God and read scripture and have a prayerful reflective time w/ God at the end of class instead of savasana. I was excited and still am! However, when I started talking about this the darkness came out of the wood work to try and dull the light. I had a long time friend, that is in the Wiccan and Santeria faith, lose it on me. It offended him so badly that I was taking out the Hindu parts of yoga (which he believes are the main part of yoga) I believe that yoga was around way before the Hindu faith latched onto it. I also believe that yoga is for everyone and is a tool to get a person into a mental and spiritual place for prayer/meditation/reflection and not a practice of the Hindu faith. After these to people (both having a very dark belief system and believe in lots of the dark arts) that I realized I was on the right path and that this was just Satan trying to deter me from what God had put in my heart to do. So I jumped in head first, I quite the studio and started teaching at the church. *Side note I no long associate w/ the people mentioned above, in person or online*
This week I start my second class at the church. I have a chair yoga (my original class) and a beginners class starting tomorrow. I have been so blessed by the people that are in my life now, thanks to this class. The studies I do now, books I read, worship, and fellowship have changed my life completely. I’ve done a complete 180 and I’m so glad. My heart feels like it has grown more than double. I feel like I have more love and joy to share. I’m on God’s path now and doing his work. I may not be fruitful when it comes to children but I believe that I am now being fruitful in the way God intended me to.
I also started teaching twice a month back at my home studio (where it all started). It’s so nice to get to see all my old students/friends again.
So what’s the same, lol? I still eat meat, I still struggle w/ diet cokes (but I’m still fighting), I don’t cuss so much anymore but I am finding lots of fun in coming up w/ new and funny sayings to use when I stump my toe! I drink a little but way way less than before. I’m still a secretary by day. I’m a woman of God, wife, furbaby mama, daughter, sister, bestie, crazy auntie, yoga teacher.
Such a long post. My plan is to post more often so I don’t have to make them so long.
Thanks for reading and Lord willing I will post again soon.